Out of Excuses

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I didn’t prepare any blog posts for this week as I normally do over the weekend.

I’m not sure why, but this weekend brought me one of the worst cases of blasé I’ve ever had.  Okay, one of the worst cases I could be bothered to try and remember.  And yet, with the boredom, came an antsy, edgy nervousness I couldn’t shake.  It was creepy in a way.

I feel the impending weight of winter in the air.  The chill nights, the crisp air.  It’s going cold faster than I remember in some time, which doesn’t bode well for a short, warm winter, but that didn’t have much to do with how I felt.  At least, I don’t think so.

Quite a few times I sat down at the computer to write something – just a short story – and couldn’t get my fingers moving on the keyboard.  My first excuse was not being able to decide on a tool.  Of all the lame excuses, how lame is that one?  I have more software for writers than anyone I know, and I can’t decide on one?  I have no fewer than nine software packages designed to make writing easier.  And I have Microsoft Word, and Corel Wordperfect.  I can’t pick a software package?  Really?  Seriously?

Then I decided I was still “brewing” the idea.  It wasn’t ready to come out of my head yet; still incubating, if you will.  All weekend.  A short story – more of a vignette, in truth – and it’s not ready yet.  Whatever.

Then I decided I’d compare it to my new story structure method and see if it needed anything.  A short story needs proper structure and planning too, y’know.  What impact would it have?  What impact did I want it to have?  How would I execute it?  Would I go with first person POV or a tight third person?  (This is a joke; I always knew this story would be in first person.  It sorta has to be.)

Next I decided I wanted to add a creepy twist, sort of theme this for Halloween.  So, I came up with a nice twist in about three minutes.  Oh, but that wasn’t enough, no.  I had to think about the ending.  I had to think about the storyline.  So that meant lying down and … you know.  Thinking. It looks like sleep.  It’s not, philistines, it’s thinking. It’s writing.  Kinda.

Then I decided maybe I’d submit it for a contest entry over on deviantART.  Normally, I don’t enter contests on dA, because I … well, frankly, I suck.  I always lose.  So I’m not sure I wanted to do that.

So then I decided I had it all worked out.  I didn’t get far with holding it up to the 4-part story structure method.  I did, however, work out how the story will go, more or less.  Some details are missing, but I’m not even sure they’re necessary.  So then you know what I did?

I started debating whether I wanted this creepy, Halloween-themed story to be my first attempt at publication.  I considered The Absent Willow Review for publishing it.  Anyone familiar with them?  Are they legit?  Anyone know how I can find out?  So, if not them, who?  And I if I do submit it I can’t publish it on my blog.  So by now it’s Sunday night, late, and I’m sitting here blogging instead.

Did I ever write that story?

How will you know?  I said I might not publish it on my fiction blog.  So how would you know?  I could say yes and you’d never know if I told the truth or not, would ya?

How’s that for a twist ending?  Neener neener!

How was your weekend?  What’d you all do?

-JDT-

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