Give Me a Light

Another year, another cross-country trip to Georgia for a family visit.

California’s central valley is a boring drive.  There’s not much to see.  They couldn’t leave during the day – he had to work, and the overtime money from the shipyard is hard to turn down – so they left when he got home.  By nightfall, they’re in the bowels of the long, narrow state, and Highway Five is a lonely band of barren road coming into Barstow.  Forty years ago traffic was much lighter, and the nights less invaded with artificial light from sprawling truck stops and suburbs splashing out from the major metropolitan areas.

Besides, there is no major metropolitan area near Button Willow, CA.  Bakersfield is the next best thing, 26 miles east.  There, they’ll veer onto Interstate 40 and head east as far and as long as they can.

For now, the empty road winds near the mountains encircling the valley.  Crisp, bright stars dot the night sky.  The little VW’s interior is dark, but the bright, white moon casts a baleful eye over the scene, stretching shadows in menacing claws over dirt, gravel, scrub brush and highway.

The road rises for miles, then begins to drop into the basin where the “towns” are – wide spots in the road designed to refuel and feed truckers bound for points east.  A few burger joints, gas stations and not much else mark the place, for those not heading to L.A. or Barstow or Bakersfield.

They begin their slow ascent and the little VW bug strains at it.  The stars pierce bright in the clear, desert sky.  She’s staring out the window, watching them twinkle, when something catches her eye.

“What is that?” she says, turning her face to him and pointing out of the corner of the windshield.

He leans forward, scrunching his face up to lift his glasses in front of his eyes.  “Oh, that’s Venus.”

“Venus?”

“Yeah.”

“Does Venus move in and out of the mountains like that?”  She folds her arms over her chest and leans back.

He blinks at her, then looks again.

A brilliant spot of unfluctuating light moved in perfect unison with the stars as the car droned on … and then it passed in front of the silhouette of a mountain, ducked behind another and reappeared in front of yet a third.  She perks a brow at him.

“Venus?”

“Probably a helicopter or plane, then,” he states, and returns his focus to the road ahead.

She looks back at the little beacon and watches it move along beside them for a moment, then reaches into her purse.  She pulls out a package of Salems, slides one into her mouth, and fishes for a lighter.  She finds a battered book of them, pulls one free, and strikes it.

And the tiny beacon, so shiny in the mountains some miles away, suddenly shot toward them.  It drew near enough to be the size of a dinner plate and its brilliance illuminated the entire interior of the car, chasing away all shadows and gashing their dark-adjusted eyes.

“Holy—!” he says, and the car swerves, spitting gravel from the tires as it runs onto the unpaved shoulder.

She gasps and drops the match.  It dies as it falls.

And the light backs away, so they can see again, but is about the size of a softball and the glow still lights the inside of the car, the road around them and the ground beneath it.  It illuminates enough to show the sandy color of the dirt, the dead, gray grasses tufted in patches amid the stones, and the green of the scrub brush leaves.

“Oh my God,” she whispers.

“Don’t … do that again,” he says, still driving.

“It’s … following us.”

He grunts, and presses the gas to the floor.  The speedometer climbs – 60, 65, 70 miles an hour.

The light never moves, never changes its position relative to theirs, size or shape.  It matches them move for move.

He grunts again and hits the brakes, and she has to put her hands against the dash to keep from slamming into it.  50, 40, 35 … all the way down to ten miles an hour.

And still the light kept pace, never changes position, size or shape.

Gradually, he accelerates again, and the light stays in place, moving as if part of their vehicle, just off the road a safe distance, lighting the ground beneath it.

“What … what should we do?” she says, her voice wavering.

He shakes his head, says nothing.  There’s no color in his face.

The road crests and then sinks, and on the horizon, the glittering lights of Barstow appear in the sea of black, shimmering in the distance.  And as suddenly as it appeared, the light receded to a tiny point among the stars in the night, and vanished.

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This story is true as related to me by my parents.  I rode on these trips with them as an infant or small child, but have no memory of them directly.

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C.o.C.: Hardbody

Red Shoes & Walking Bags
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Some of the people I noticed on my commute weren’t necessarily riding the train with me. Some of them shared my walk from the train station to the office where I worked.

Backstory: The company I worked for had a campus sprawled over various areas of Big City.  This is called a “Metropolitan Area” scheme, if you’re wondering.  Two buildings on the same street faced each other, one on the west side and the other on the east side of a north-south thoroughfare.  So, a lot of people who worked for said company hoofed down the long street from destinations unknown.  Hardbody was one such individual.

When I first started with the company, I didn’t know the shuttle bus schedule and frankly, I didn’t want to work that hard first thing in the morning, so for several months I just walked up the street.  It was a long walk for me and hey, I’m fat – I could use the exercise.  Why not?

For a time, I tried to keep up with the other walking commuters as they strutted down the street with their type-A commuter’s gaits.

That didn’t last.  Did I mention I’m fat?  Well, I’m out of shape and a smoker too, so no, that didn’t last.  I soon discovered I couldn’t keep up, even when I tried.  I walked as fast as I dared without inducing a cardiac episode, and reminded myself smoking after this ordeal, no matter how appealing, was a disastrously stupid idea.    One day, through the pain-induced haze and tears, I heard a rapid footfall behind me.  It was the familiar clip-clop of high heels.  I’d gotten used to being passed by women in high-heeled shoes (and everyone else, fat, thin, young, old, disabled – didn’t matter, everyone passed me), so when I glanced up, I didn’t expect much.

Instead, I caught the posterior view of one of the most amazing female specimens I’ve ever seen.

Her clumpy heels didn’t slow her down.  She strode along, her sprayed hair bouncing with each step, but nothing else did.  Her body had no notable fat – at least not through her clothing.  She was taller than I am in her heels, and her clothes fit every curve and angle of her body.  Her hips swung as she walked, and even her glutes didn’t vibrate.  It was like she was carved from stone.

I stared, amazed, as she put distance between us, and wondered if I could count her ribs if she wore a bikini.  Then I noticed her thighs, from which you could bounce a quarter, didn’t make contact at the top where they attached to her pelvis.  And in a moment I realized there really is such a thing as too thin.  She’s an amazing physique to be sure, but I couldn’t help wondering how many vertebrae show through the skin on her back and whether her iliac bones protruded when she wore more revealing articles.

Still, her athleticism astounded me, and I pondered the hours in the gym, her commitment to diet and discipline, as she smoldered out of my sight.

Over the course of many months I gained endurance enough to be less slow (never fast) when I walked, and I always used The Hardbody as my benchmark.

I didn’t really mind the view either.

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C.o.C.: The Friendly Woman

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I first noticed The Friendly Woman after a couple of days of my commute.  I tend to observe people in general, and I don’t often forget a face.  I’d seen her my first trip, and here she was again on my second trip.  She had a masculine hair cut – no style to it, parted on the left, cropped short around her circular head.  She sat in the northwest corner of the train station, dolloped onto one of the uncomfortable benches of wrought iron and cedar, varnished to a high gloss, her face buried in a romance novel.  Her rotund body bulged so she seemed like a beanbag collapsing into the slats.

When I walked in, I gave the station my usual precursory scan.  I always check a place out when I walk in – see who’s there, get a feel for the populace.  Not many people huddled inside the depot; Curly Sue was in her corner, at the other end of the row of benches from The Friendly Woman, riffing through her iPod songs.  A bald man with his foot in a walking cast shuffled advertisements out of his newspaper, his Parkinsons tremors shaking his pate and hands.  A man with his arm in a body-embracing sling leaned over a lacquered tree limb cane with a rubber foot on the end, a low-crowned cowboy hat snugged down over his ears.  A young man tumbled through the doors with a small Igloo lunch cooler, his hard hat’s hollow plastic clattering against the floor, the benches, the cooler.

I sat down between Curly Sue and The Friendly Woman, which is when I noticed the latter’s gaze on me.

When she saw my eyes shift to her, she didn’t break her stare.  Instead, she smiled.  “Hi,” she said, and her voice was soft, warm, welcoming.  I couldn’t help responding with my own weary smile and returned her greeting.  She went back to her bodice-ripper, and I shut my eyes to pray.

The next morning, she caught my attention as I entered the building and greeted me with “Good morning,” in her usual, chipper-but-unobtrusive sing-song.  And so it went, every day.  Sometimes she’d make small talk about the weather, or the train, and asked where I stopped at the other end.  Other times, when the weather warmed into summer, she’d comment on how pretty the train station grounds are relative to others she’s seen along the line.  I agreed with her; the flowers and plants were pretty if not beautiful.  The train station building was too hot, without air conditioning, to wait inside, so many passengers – more than 20 at times – would crowd the edge of the platform and await the train, swatting mosquitoes and fanning gnats.  TFW and I would chat quietly for a few minutes before she returned to her novel and I paced.  I always pace.

When the tragic accident I called Not a Typical Morning happened, she didn’t complain.  She never commented with the others in the station in a calloused, uncaring way.  She only made a couple of phone calls to arrange another method of transport.  Oh, and we didn’t exchange greetings that day.

When autumn’s bite returned the chill to the air, I didn’t retreat back into the train depot.  I would wait on the platform and let the cool, brisk winds brace me, wake me.  But I’d see her by her northwest window, bundled in a parka with her hood drawn over her head, book in her hand, dolloped onto her bench.  In my head, I always said, “Good morning.”

I still do sometimes.

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C.o.C.: Curly Sue

Brunswick, Maryland

Cast of Characters, part 1.  The people I observed while riding a commuter train to and from work everyday.

I noticed Curly Sue first.  She’s sort of a bookworm-ish type; glasses, academic, studious look to her, but her high-energy and tense presence screamed type-A.  Her tresses fell about her shoulders and down her back in ringlets.  They weren’t too tight, or too small, and were perpetually wet.  Her near-black locks matched her rich, dark eyes.  When she walked it was with intent, purpose, never sacheting or meandering, and her pant material swished and zipped as her feet swung in rapid, choppy steps.

Most days she wore black pants and a quilted jacket.  I first noticed her in March, which isn’t all that warm ‘round these parts.  I found Curly Sue most mornings sitting in the train depot, her iPod chirping its tiny clicks as she rattled through her playlist selections.  She sat on the hard wooden bench, stiff-backed and proper, as if she were uncomfortable sitting still.  After she set up all the desired songs, she’d pop up like a Jack-in-the-Box and pump her feet back and forth in their fast, smooth arc to walk to the end of the platform and wait for the train, zip-zopping out of earshot before the door swung closed.

Curly Sue never spoke or smiled, never gave notice to anyone unless someone spoke first.  She had a rock on her finger the size of Gibraltar when I first noticed her, but seemed far too young to be married.  She carried a huge backpack, and a tote bag in her free hand.  Her bird-like motions and energy always made me feel like I moved in slow motion, sluggish, lethargic.  If I tried to keep up with her I’d be breathless and sweating despite the cold.  She wore crisp, white sneakers for her walking commute at the end of the line in Big City, but I never saw which way she went.  I never even saw her get off the train … or on it, for that matter.  She’d go to the end of the platform and then I didn’t see her anymore.

I started noticing, when I took later trains home, Curly Sue rode in the upper deck, in the same car I did.  I would acknowledge her with a slight nod and trace of a smile, but if she returned it I never noticed.  I didn’t mind.  She spent her commute home on the phone or working on her computer, and as we neared our stop I often found her huddled in the door wells of the train car chatting with another young woman, about her age but heavier set and mousy.

The only time I saw Curly Sue talk was the day a stranger asked about other train stations in the area.  She offered supporting information in a friendly, warm and welcoming voice and tone with The Friendly Woman to the stranger.  Curly Sue strode out of the train and down the ramp to the parking lot in her frenetic strides and I’d stop at my car, parked much closer than hers.  Thank goodness.

You’ll meet The Friendly Woman tomorrow.

-JDT-

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Well, I’d love to say life is interesting, but it’s not.

I had a promising call from a recruiter this morning, but it turned out to be nothing more than another dead-end fizzle.  *Sigh*  Oh well.  I chug on anyway.

I had a series of paranoid experiences last night which kept me up until almost dawn.  I can’t explain them.  Strange sounds.  I had physical contact with something, but I don’t know if I dreamed that or imagined it.  I physically left the bed to check on the children because of worry.  I heard things I’ve never heard before and felt strangely frustrated that my wife, as loving and kind as she is, didn’t believe me and was somewhat dismissive.  Now, in the gloom of an overcast afternoon with the daylight streaming on me, I’m unsure of myself and can’t blame her.

I’ve had a story rattling around in my head for a while.  It’s the kiriban prize I have for my deviantART page view winner.  But I haven’t started it yet, and I want to.  I’m struggling with guilt over what I should be doing instead of writing.  The rebellious part of me says writing is what I’m supposed to be doing, that this is the calling I’ve had my entire life, and I should follow it.  I can’t get that to sit right with my head, who’s screaming I need to get a job.  The disconnect between the two is almost painful, and I end up not writing because of it.

I have really great friends who are wonderful people.  I thank God for them every day, and pray for them every day.  They never fail to make me smile.  I hope I return the favor.

I just found out last night that WordWeb, the electronic dictionary I’ve touted so loudly here on my blog, is run by a militant tree-hugging POS who’s pushing a ridiculous anti-global-warming agenda.  A nag screen showed up when I used it last indicating I’d been using it for a year, and if I wanted to continue to use it I’d have to answer a couple of questions.  It asked if I’ve taken two or more commercial flights in the last twelve months.  When I answered no, the screen took me to WordWeb’s page and informed me that carbon emissions had to be reduced worldwide by 80% and if I flew on two or more commercial flights I wasn’t eligible to use the free version, and some other preachy bullshit.  For the record, I don’t believe in AGW, and there is a lot of good evidence against it.  Period.  And I won’t have my actions dictated by some dumbass software developer in some rathole corner of the world who’s too soft-skulled to see a lie for the religion it is.  I’ll keep using the product, but I’m on the look-out for a replacement and when I find one, he’s done here.  Oh, and if you’re the developer of the software, just so you know – I lied.  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!

Okay, that’s it, I got nothing else.  Talk to y’all later, and be good.

-JDT-