Oh, dear friends and readers! I had so much to tell you, so much to show you, so much to spill over you!
In my absence, all I could think about was you. I wept hot stinging tears about how you’d all forget me, move on to more interesting, more oft updated blogs. I worried over you, how you were all doing, how to communicate with everyone and tell you how I missed you, how I wanted to be with you and share in your lives, experiences and pixels. I fell asleep at night with blog posts in my head, picking just the right words, just the right illustrative anecdotes, just the right phrasing to paint mental pictures for you. I examined every experience with a camera’s tearless cornea, snapped photos in my mind’s eye of the things I saw, recorded what I felt and heard, drew what I saw and longed to get it onto the screen for you to laugh, cry, gasp and tremble. I wanted so much to dance with you in text and images. I imagined your comments, the responses to my well-chosen prose, how you’d love my mundanity again, and would enjoy the common stories I told you with the twist of my bent on them.
Oh, I imagined how we’d share the time I was away, and you’d feel part again of my boring and ordinary life! I had it all imagined, and those words, those posts-in-wait, helped me drift off to sleep and smile.
And then it happened — we got back. We revived! We survived without the lifeblood of the Internet as long as we had to and jumped back into the roiling cybersurf the moment we could! The moment was at hand, and I was free, free to unleash those clever stories, those beautiful poetic images in prose, those painted portraits done in words! I was finally able to do it!
… and I can’t remember a God-blessed thing. Not one.
I hope to have more fiction soon, if anyone cares about that besides Raga. (Love you, Raga!) I’ve written a short story (16K) for someone on my deviantART page, because she won a kiriban, and I think I finished a chapter of Witch Hunt, but nothing else. I’ve been in a really dry spell creatively. But I’ve been catching up on your blogs, to find out what I missed.
*Sigh* Ah, me. What can I do?