I hope not. I genuinely do.
But I’m not so lucky. I have a bad habit of looking at things in a little bit of a negative light unless I can’t. If there’s a way to see the downside to it I’ll find it. So when I spent some quality time looking back over the last year of my life, I found a way to make a negative out of something which could’ve been a real positive.
Oh, to be sure, there have been some great things. Some joyful things. Some happy things. And I’m not looking to detract from those. But I also see a lot of lost opportunity, a lot of time gone forever which could’ve been used in a great, positive way. My buddy Kristy pointed it out to me some time ago, and I thought I understood. Turns out, the real impact of it settled on me last night and I spun into a deep depressed mood.
Fortunately, with the sun comes a new day, a new chance. A new day to make a different choice and get things right, back on track. I didn’t do that, but hey, that’s what the new days are for, right? What good is having a new day if it’s not a new chance to screw up?
By the middle of the afternoon, I shook off the funk and was just back into my old self again. But I can’t ditch the thoughts of squandered time, lost chances, water forever gone under the bridge of my life, which is fast eroding and shortening. I’m going to try and make better use of the time, the chances I have. I can fit in both the things I must do and the things I want to do, at least for now, and I have to work hard and be diligent in guarding myself against the laziness of taking time for granted. Today’s another day, and I’ll be ready to make use of the time I have at hand, but that doesn’t mean I won’t continue to mess up. I just have to be more careful with time. There’s not a lot of that and it’s not like a bad investment, where you can recover your losses another way.
Nope. I’ve squandered a year or more and like the wise old saying goes, I only regret the things I didn’t do during that time.
Back on the horse.
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