I was pretty naughty on my diet over the last several weeks. By the time you read this, I may have gained some weight from where I was. I don’t have any real excuses, but now that it’s Friday (at least, that’s when I’m scheduling this post to go up), I can say with honesty I have likely been good on my diet all week. (Okay, maybe not.)
Used to be I had a philosophy of starting on Monday. “I’ll be good again come Monday,” I’d say, and lose the entire weekend to bad foods, drink and laziness. It’s easier to go get something to eat – or to have it brought to us, truth be told – than to cook and clean up the mess and ensure we stay within the constraints of our diet. The funny part is, we don’t really crave things too much. We’re not unhappy with how restrictive the diet can be, or any of that crap. We just get stricken with bouts of incredible lazy and because of that, we not only don’t eat right, we don’t exercise consistently either.
But we think we’ve found solutions to those things now. We think we’ve recommitted ourselves to the cause. I know at the end of last week I had to crawl through some video footage from a security camera which showed me how fat I really am. It gave me scale the way still photos can’t, and put in horrifying perspective how far gone I really am. I’ve made strides, really I have, but they’re almost insignificant compared to the steps I made getting here. It seemed to happen so fast. In the course of a few months, really, and it sometimes feels irreversible.
But our exercise DVDs are waiting for us and I have an upper-body focused one coming. I can’t wait for it to get here! When it does I’m going nuts working out. I’m going to be one of those six-days-a-week fools. I’m trying to work up to being able to do some of those hot, trendy exercise DVDs like the Insanity workout, or maybe P90X. They look so cool, don’t they? And the people in the informercials all have bodies just like I want. How can I lose?
Anyway, it’s partially because of consistency I’ve not made enough strides in the last few months. Maybe by this time next year going to a swimming pool won’t seem so embarrassing and far-fetched or laughable. But it’s a long, long row to hoe, and much hard work, sweat and tears will accompany.
What are you doing for the weekend?