Remember that song about no one liking you when you were a kid? I’m singin’ that song again lately.
I’ve been told twice in the last 24 hours I’m too sensitive, and one of those came from someone I work with. That’s disconcerting, so I think I need to be more self-aware and display less, if possible. It’s troubling because I didn’t even know I was so transparent. I try to be more balanced at work, but lately things do not seem to be balanced for me at all.
Or maybe I’m just being too sensitive.
I guess the bad news is, I don’t know what I’m doing to seem sensitive to change it so I can be less sensitive. And if I can’t figure it out, what the heck is going to happen if I get to a point of real stress?
Pondering all this is stressful, of course, so I try not to think about it. I’ll just keep doing the best I can and see what’s what down the road. I’m trying to monitor my attitude. I feel I can discuss this with my wife safely, but how am I supposed to ask someone I work with why they’d think that of me? It sounds like I’m being overly sensitive if I do. A genuine Catch-22, if ever I saw one. So I guess I’ll let it roll off my shoulders and just forget it.
In other news, I got a raise the other day. Retroactive to last month, so this month’s check will be more generous than usual. It’s not a huge deal, but it is a nicety. I appreciated it.
Interestingly, one of the areas in which I got a high score was relationship building. Now I feel like Shaun Alexander. I get the raise and I’m overly-sensitive and sort of grumpy with people. I’ve been more irritable lately for some reason. My wife says it’s been about a month and a half. I cry BS on that, but now I’m wondering.
Well. I guess I’ll go and eat some worms.