I’m still not watching my training videos. I tried earlier in the week, but you know what? Sometimes, I simply can’t face ’em. I work with programming all day long, working on two variant languages (Visual Basic for Applications and Visual Basic .NET 2010), and sometimes, I just need a break from it.
I’ve tried playing video games, but that’s actually stressful, being I stink at them. My kids don’t like the same games I do, so there’s no help there. Besides, they want to play their own games and do their own thing, and I get it.
When I reflect on it, I never was very good at games. Back when the controller was composed of a joystick and action button, I could handle them better, but all my peers seemed to be better players. Now gameplay is a lot harder — and in my estimation less fun — and with the button requirements to make things happen, I’m getting worse and worse at these things. I considered, for a few milliseconds, buying a gaming console for use with my PC games, and then realized what a mistake and waste of money that would be. I stink at video games, and that’s that.
So, what do I do instead?
Well, I guess I could write, eh? I guess I could do that. I have a lot of outlines, a lot books in process, but when I start fiddling with those, I get lost. I also get sleepy for some reason. I’ve never figured that out. My friend Spark offered me the best explanation for it a few years back, but I can’t prove definitively one way or another. (I think it was Spark, anyway. Hm.)
I get a heavy dose of fear and guilt when I do that too. If I blow off watching my videos for writing, I get so nervous I get a stomach ache. I don’t know when I’ll EVER be able to write again, and I feel like I’m losing the ability to do so by the minute.
So, maybe this weekend, I’ll MAKE myself write something. Even if it’s just a short story. I’m going to force something out of my brain onto the keyboard and damned be the consequences.
There’s always next week, right?
It’s family game night tonight, and the kids picked CLUE, so we’ll be doing that later. Can’t wait! What’s up for you?
Have a good weekend, y’all!