Antsy

Restless
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Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve really had a strong feeling of restlessness.  It’s not anxiety, per se, but it’s an edginess I can’t define clearly, put my finger on.  Not all the way, at least.

Being out of work for so long isn’t helping, of course.  But it’s more than that.  Being helpless in a lot of ways in this situation brings its own sense of frustration, but there’s a tiger pacing in a cage somewhere inside me and I can’t figure out what’s got it so wound up.  There’s something in my spirit that’s uneasy.  I have no clue what it is, but I bet it’s contributing to my inability to crank out anything creative lately.

I’ve spoken to my beloved wife about this.  She has interesting insights on it, but nothing she’s said has helped me overcome this crap either.  I get more and more ticked off about it as time goes on.

Part of me wants to do something.  But with our current situation, that’s simply not possible.

Oh well.  I guess it could be worse.  But it’s times like this that make me wish I was a gamer.  Maybe a nice round of mindless alien-gunning would help.

What’s on your mind lately?

-JDT-